so here i am from KL typing on this post...for some reason feeling a bit down...and too lazy to clear up my room and unpack my bag...

think i`m missing home again though i just came back like a day be4 tat... >.<

clinical attachment starts next week though i have no motivation watsoever to actually do my best...

feels like at this moment i have no drive or motivation or expectations of myself for my performance in clinical attachment...wondering why though...

*sigh*maybe tommorow when i wake up i`ll have some point or insight of what i am to do with my life and ACTUALLY have some sort of motivation or drive to do SOMETHING since i now tend to delay things off... >.<

nights everyone!!

pharmacology...study of drugs and its interaction towards the body...i`m having the exam is less than 12 hours away and nothing in inside my head now....i`ve been studying since the beginning of the term yet now there is ABSOLUTELY nothing in my head which i can remember now.... T^T i`m soooooo seriously screwed for this exam...feel like i`m really really gonna fail... NUUUUUU....y is it soo tough?? tried doing the past year paper with some friends and all i could think off was i`m dead...i can`t even do the questions without referring to the reference book or lecture notes!!!! waaaaaaaa........i seriously in denial here.......T_T help?

will try to study later in the library...hope not to get distracted with facebook or other websites in these 12 hours...wish me luck all..i really really desperately desperately need it.... >.<

so here i am just finished one exam of nursing science...cracked my brains up to study and when the paper comes all my brain could come out was the lyrics of 'touch my hand' from david archuletta!! i was like 0_o

NUUUUUUUUUU!!!! CONCENTRATE BEATRIX!!!

ok what is the clinical manifestations of cancer...'can`t let the music stop..until i touch ur hand...NUUUUU!!!!!'

T_T

desperately trying to fnd the delete button for the song and concentrate on the paper....when i finally thought i could ....another song pop into my head.... WAAAARRRGGHHHHH!!!!!!

and the condition of the room wasn`t helping....i think the temperature of the room was like the north pole!!!

after finishing the paper... (FINALLY...despite all the distraction of the song which is still now ringing in my head in one corner) and double-checking it, I RAN OUT OF THE ROOM....and a few hours later the stupid song is still stuck in my head.... T^T

and i have my pharmaco paper on monday... HELP ME!!!!!just had my lunch and going home later to study.... after doing some stuff for my dad... wish me luck... i desperately need it!!!

i hate this period...now....have nursing research presentation on thursday which coincides with my nursing skill practical exam....nursing research (NR) is at 2-4pm and my nursing skill practical exam is at 4-6pm..... T____T ... (SCREAMS NUUUUUUUUUUuuuuuu......) have to bring extra clothes too...NR have to wear formal..and nursing skill practical exam have to wear uniform....i desperately hate this week.....i`ll look like a mad oerson carrying soo many stuff... (groans)

sorry guys gomenasai ne!!!!! i went to reformat my laptop a few months ago and all my links in the internet were gone!!! kapish!!!disappear!!!! so lame...i even manage to forget my own web address blog!!! how humiliating is tat??

its been some time since my last update... i really apologise as i have many assigments and quiz every week....finally done all my assigments and project presentations!!!! YAY!!!..... wait...i`m missing something... oh yea T_T i have my practical exam this wednesday.... NUUUUU!!!!! god damn it i hate this term....my schedule is like soo packed...and i MEAN REALLY PACKED!!!

my wednesday practical exam at least this time is in the evening got time to do some crash course....as the module leader keeps adding stuff last minute... I HATE HER!!!! HELL I HATE ALL MY MODULES THIS TERM!!!! they seriously dun know how to do my timetable and set the module.... i mean come on....3 hour break in between for an hour lecture later on? who would go to the lecture.....and they keep stressing us to go..... =_=" most of my mates didn`t go and usually ask other to sign for them...pathetic man...

i really think the assessment for this term is too stressful as there are too many things to do and little time to actually study...(i haven`t even started yet) as there are quizes, group project assigments, presentation ...... they really torture us....LITERALLY.

hope i pass this wednesday practicals....got soo many stuff to remember.... T_T i`m already half-dead from doing all the assigments which were piled up. though that was done already i still have my practical exam and coomon test which is loomin over me in 2 weeks time.....

though i have only three examinable modules, 2 of them are killer modules.....waaaaa.......i need to destress mydelf.....anybody know any good ways? and i`m moving to another new place this sunday.....and haven`t started packing yet..... GREAT, FANTASTIC......

T_T writing this down is even stressing me more as i remember them all......and the stuff i have to do.... i wanna go HOME and SLEEP!!! i haven`t been sleeping well these past month... slept like 6-7 hours only....sometimes only less then 6 hours.....i`m getting pimples everywhere... i`m fag ugly now..... XD

just suffer for another 2 weeks and finish my clinical attachment in one go and i`m FREE for 2 weeks sad....sooo sad....but it keeps me GOING!!!! MOTIVATION!!! YEA!!!!! ganbatte ne!!!!! to joyce-oneesama welcome back!!!! hope to see u soon yea? hopefully i can come up after my clinical attachment in July!!!! miss yea!!!!! ^_^

kaes gonna stop this post here and i feel like studying now!!!! wish me luck!!! till the next post!!!

OMGGGGG i forgot to update my blogg!!! T_T

sooo sorry i had lots of stuff to do...

had many assigments and group projects to be done in a limited amount of time i hate my term this time...the lecturers like to give surprises last minute and give us VERY i mean VERY limited around of time to do our assigment .....

i wanna KILL THEM!!!! KILL KILL KILL!!!!!!! T_T soo stressed and my common test is coming in like A FEW WEEKS TIME!!!!!! i haven`t even started studying.... T_T coz of the assigments to be done..

haven`t even go shopping or go anywhere.....

wanna go out!!!!!! wanna wander aimlessly around ...enjoy the free air-con...

I WANT BACK MY FRESHIE YEAR!!!!! i`m damn stressed....

lucky going back this weekend ...on a trivial matter XD

doing check-up on my braces.......

help.....help......